I don't know what to do anymore.. UPDATE ***

He kept ringing my phone today so eventually I answered I was expecting atleast I'm sorry. Even though I know it doesn't change what he had done. But instead his exact words were " i have no remorse for what I done to you the other night. You should count yourself lucky that was all you got" I couldn't believe what words I heard coming from his mouth. The man I love the man I had given my all to for 5 years is trying to tell me I deserved a head butt to the face and that I should be grateful for just getting that.. I said to him I fell inlove with the person you were the person I saw before me that night and speak to now I have no idea who he is..

was reluctant to post anything but I just don't know what to do I feel like I have No One to turn to.. Last night I found condoms in my partners work bag.. I wasn't in there looking for anything it fell down and as I was putting things back I felt something and there they were.. some missing some still there.. i wasn't angry I wasn't sad I just felt nothing. But I know I needed to ask. So I waited for him to get home I sat down and said we needed to talk. I calmly told him what I found and I asked the simple question of why they are there.. We have been trying to conceive since our first loss so I know they weren't for us.. His eyes went big and zoned out as if he was trying to think of something that made sense to why he had them.. instead of saying a thing he started shouting about how I checked his bag and he couldn't believe I had done that.. he got himself angrier and angrier his whole face changed I had never seen him like it. I tried to remain calm sat on the bed. I took one of the condoms from under me and said no this isn't about your bag it's about this and threw it his way. I said it is a simple question and needs an answer.. His voice got louder and he started coming closer.. next thing I know I started to get uncomfortable so I went to stand up and he grabbed my shoulders and head butted me in the nose. I backed into a corner covering my face. I turnt to him let my hand down as I felt the blood running down my lips.. His face changed from angry to scared.. he came to almost console me I flinched and ran.. I have never been in this kind of situation before.. I still can't believe he has done this.. never before has he even raised his hand to me.. I feel numb. I love him yet he has done this.. I kept thinking if it was my fault what I might have said that egged him on to do it. But I know I stayed calm I didn't scream or shout even though I wanted to.. I just feel so lost right now 😔 p.s I didn't know where to post so I'm sorry