Afraid of Sex

I’m afraid of sex. I’ve been dating my boyfriend for roughly 3 and 1/2 years and we recently moved in together. Right before we moved in we were both really looking forward to getting to do more things together. Well. I went home for a week and then came back and then he went home for a week. And when he came back he brought condoms. Ever since then I’ve been so turned off. I had told him prior that I didn’t want condoms in the house until I was ready. I’ve been so turned off since then because now it feels like everything could lead to sex and it’s too much pressure and I’m just not really and too scared to have sex...

One thing I would like to add is he’d never pressure me to have sex. Ever. In a million years. He hasn’t even said anything about it. I’m really thankful he’s so understanding.