Freaking out😒😩

2 months ago my husband and I found out we were expecting. We have 3 boys but were excited for this new blessing. Of course I told my bestie and one of my brothers because he’s my person that I tell EVERY time I’m knocked up. Exactly 6 weeks ago we suffered a terrible miscarriage and were devastated. We understood it wasn’t meant to be for us at that very time so we moved on. The doctors followed my HCG levels back down and made sure everything was back to normal. The doctors explained it could be a while before I got my next period so I’ve just been anticipating that coming along.

Tonight I found myself tearing up while watching Moana (a movie I’ve seen a million times) with my two year old so I decided to take a pregnancy test when my husband left for work. I took that test 10 minutes ago and it came out POSITIVE!!! My anxiety is at an ALL TIME HIGH! I’ve never taken a pregnancy test and not told my husband but, honestly I’m terrified right now. I know he’ll be excited and happy but I can’t break his heart if we have another miscarriage. I’ve never really kept any secrets from him so to not tell him now doesn’t feel right to me. I haven’t had any real symptoms other than some nausea that I’ve had on a regular basis so hiding it wouldn’t be hard but, I don’t know if I want to do that and if I do how long do I keep it quiet. I’m just so confused and scared and anxious. Any advice is much appreciated. Sorry for the long post😔