Depression rant

My husband and his family are true believers in spending every waking moment together. We’re living with them at the moment and I’m starting to get serious depression from it.

My MIL is always telling me how to raise my kids, she won’t get a job so they literally have 0 income except for what me and my husband pay on the bills and she is trying to break up my marriage by trying to make me think my husband is cheating.

My FIL has no education so he can’t find a job in this state and he has a broke leg. My MIL won’t let him off of the couch so he has to ask everyone to do everything for him. If he even attempts to ask her or my SIL (11 y/0) to get him anything or if he tries to walk she screams at him and they end up in a huge fight! I’m front of my kids!!! He cusses (we don’t allow that) and she throws things and slams door etc

My SIL and MIL get upset if I leave the house with my kids. They act like my kids are theirs and I’m taking their kids away. They always take the kids from me and come up with their own rules and don’t make them follow my rules. (Ex. No pop for my 1 y/o my MIL will do it behind my back and say that her kids had it and they’re fine)

My husband thinks I’m exaggerating 🙄 and stands up for his bum of a family.

Back to the always being together...I’m starting to get bad depression from living like this...I just want to be alone with my kids in my room (that has no door 😡😡😡) and they won’t let me. They get all pissy and try to start fights because I leave the room.

My 2nd wedding anniversary is on the 24th and like I said our tool doesn’t have a door and the walls are paper thin...we can’t even celebrate our anniversary right. We’ve been paying so much on their bills we can’t even buy each other gifts....we’re trying to buy a house but it’s hard especially when we tell my MIL that we found one we love she gets all pissy because she thinks she’s moving to TN (never gonna happen) and that we’re gonna live in her house there with her. Um...NO! We put in an offer on a house today and we told her now she’s throwing a fit. I can’t live like this and my kids shouldn’t have to endure it either. I have a one year old and a 2 month old. They need MOMMY! Not grandma.

She makes me feel guilty for not being able to breastfeed my oldest. My milk just didn’t come in. She always tells that her kids never needed a pacifier because she was always there to comfort them and she had enough milk to feed her kids without formula and anyone who says they don’t just isn’t trying.

I’m sorry this is so long. I just needed to get it off my chest since I don’t have anyone.