nervous wreck...

Well. I’ve been trying to have a baby for years with my partner. And here I am one week late and I’m terrified to test and be let down. I’ve had periods come late in the past, and as a matter of fact. We both struggle I have only 1 open tube and have had cysts on my ovaries. My partner has low counts but last year in March 2017 after an argument later on in the middle of the night I woke up to the worst contracting pains in my uterus that I went to the er drenched in sweat and tears. Turned out I had a miscarriage and didn’t even know I was pregnant. So now here I am afraid of testing and seeing another negative sign. Prayers for a positive ladies lord knows after 7 years of trying I really want a positive.