Rant!!

Nobody to listen to me so I'll talk here. year 4 still no baby constantly trying but not consistent. They say one time that's all well my work schedule is crazy and it doesn't coincide with the donors schedule so we inseminate when we can, which is probably never gonna work. I'm so over the edge and don't wanna give up, I see new babies everyday and they melt my heart. Donors down here will go through all the steps just to give up on you, it kinda sucks. How do I keep myself from being discouraged? What can cure this bad baby fever of mine?