I wanted to be pregnant so badly and now that I’m 29 weeks I want nothing more then not to be. I’ve been hospitalized for depression now, I’m in so much pain because of sciatica that I can barely walk. I’ve gained 30 pounds so far and I hate myself.

I know I sound whiney but I don’t think I’m cut out for this. I wish daily I just wouldn’t wake up 😔 I feel guilty and stupid. If I cant handle pregnancy how am I supposed to be a good mom?

Since being pregnant I threw up my entire first trimester. My blood pressure is so low I faint constantly. Second trimester was good but now I’m gone to crap again. I just cry constantly.

I just don’t want to do this anymore.