It actually happened

I’m 19 and just found out last night I’m pregnant. I got a Kroger blue dye test and took it after work and the positive line started filling up within seconds and was dark way before the 2 minutes were up. I’m getting 2 more today to be sure before I start to make any plans. My period is 11 days late as of today and I’m used to irregular periods and being late almost every time I’m supposed to bleed, but something inside me told me this time was different and I was right. What’s even more crazy is I got pregnant at the same time as my 23 year old married aunt.

It actually shocked me although I knew because throughout my 15 month relationship with my boyfriend all the pregnancy scares I’ve had (alllll those tests I took) came back negative. We were both starting to worry that something was wrong with one of us, so we’re actually really glad that I’m pregnant in a way. But I’m really sad because I can’t keep this baby. We both want to but we can’t. Since I’m only about 1-3 weeks I plan on getting an abortion pill so any advice would be really really helpful!

I have 2 jobs and go to school and my boyfriend is about to turn 20 and works a lot too. We live with his grandma and his cousin and her annoying girlfriend, we don’t have a car because that’s how tight money is, and we’re working on trying to move out but it’s a slow process. My mother is extremely against me having kids young because she had me at 19 and my dad has said before if I get pregnant he’s disowning me and divorcing my mom (they have a really bad relationship as it is but thats another story). We both come from poor childhoods and want to raise our kids differently with real opportunities and what we didn’t have. I want to be at least graduated from college before I have babies so this really sucks. I wish I could be happy and excited. I want kids so bad but this just isn’t the right time.

I know how much some of you ladies want babies, so I send my baby dust to all of you ✨