Grappling with feelings

This has been on my mind a lot today...

I am a person who firmly believes that life starts at conception and that the little life is sacred and should be honored.

But as a “would-have-been-mom” going through an early miscarriage of my first pregnancy, I’m grappling with the feelings of guilt for being sad about “a baby that was barely there.”

IDK. I appreciate this forum because I feel like I can post these thoughts without judgement. But I’m trying to not be sad, but but am heart broken over my baby’s life that’s gone.