My dad been in and out my life for years ever since i had my first child at 15 he downed me, degraded me, and always refers to me as the “dumb” child that he ashamed of. Some days were better than others but he always made me feel left out. He always told me i came last to the other siblings..It diminishes my spirit. (i use to be suicidal) 😢. Fast forward now im 19 and pregnant now my fiance is a hella good man to me and my first born child. My dad would call me and ask me wheres my fiance and when i say “he’s at work”.. he would reply,” you so stupid you really think that man faithful to you? you really think he at work, you need to stop being dumb u make me look like an embarressment” it hurts n its disrespecful i been with him for years with no problems but my older sisters man has cheated and hit her n my daddy never says anything about it. but when i got me a good man he talks bad about me... When i shared to him the news about what my son name was going to be he went off on me said im stupid for givin the baby my fiances last name and that he should have my lkast name (which is my daddys last name) he “shook his head at me” and never spoke with me again..😢now his fiance is asking me did i buy my dress for the wedding ( she probably doesnt know what happened between me n my dad nor how he do me they recently got together) ... My babyshower is a week after the wedding. and im already anticipating that and then my dad ignored me when i tried reaching out to him. im to a point where im like fuck it i have my own problems and a baby shower to prepare for. I really am leaning towards NOT going. This stresses me out. My best bet is to not attend n prepare for my baby shower that next week because i still need a dress and something nice for me and my daughter to wear.. Am i wrong for not wanting to go?