A short message to my boyfriend of two years who I have a child with due in March...

ya know? my bottom line to you is this.... i want to be smothered in love. absolutely drowned. i wanna be the one that’s allowed to get upset sometimes. i want you to be the one comforting and calming me... it’ll probably never happen. i want to be the one that wakes up with a smile on my face because you’ve made me coffee or bought a pretty bouquet of flowers for me to put on the kitchen table. it’ll probably never happen. i want to spend the rest of my life just loving you. as a family. me, you, and our baby. forever and ever. nothing else matters. but sadly, it’ll probably never happen.... it breaks my heart to know that we have drifted so insanely far apart.. but here we are.. on opposite sides of the world it feels like, yet trying to connect. two North magnets trying to fit together... it just doesn’t work.. we have to fix it, or it’s going to break us...