False hope

5 days late today. I had taken a test yesterday and the day before both coming up with a very very faint positive lines of pregnancy. Never wanted to get my hopes up, but my periods are ALWAYS on the same cycle each month. 5 days late, i thought, maybe, just maybe, after 1 year and 3 month since our miscarriage i though i was pregnant. Disappointment is what awoke me today. I cry in silence in order to not awake anyone around. Again and again i ask myself, “what is wrong with me, what am i doing wrong?” Each month this gets harder to deal with. Almost 3 AM and i sit here, heartbroken once again.