I have an appointment to be seen by a psychiatrist and therapist for next week because the past week has been hell for me, my depression is really bad to the point I'm contiplating on killing myself or going back to cutting and my anxiety doesn't help either, I use to be able to control it and being around my daughter use to help but right now the darkness is getting the best of me and I don't know how to tell my SO that I've been thinking about killing myself,he knows my anxiety has been bad lately because I've been having bad panic attacks and he's tried comforting me and helping but I don't know how to tell him it's so much worse than he thinks, I'm also trying to stay strong Because it's his birthday next week and I don't want to be a downer, any advice on help with what to do for my anxiety while I wait to get seen