The only sexual experiences I've had were abuse and when I tried to hookup last night with with a guy I'm seeing I couldn't 😞 I just froze up and had to stop him. He thought I wasn't in to him and I tried to explain him that's not the case.

It's not that I'm not ready or that I don't want to because I really do.

Any advice on how I can relax and let go next time? I want to have control over my body; I don't want my past to hold that control. I want to enjoy myself for once 😩