Putting my dog down.

About a month And a half ago, I came home from work to find my dog limping. She has always been terrified of thunderstorms and while I was at work, there happened to be one. It only lasted about 15 minutes but I just assumed she hurt herself while trying to jump on the couch. My baby girl is 11 years old and I immediately got ice and I laid on the couch with her and iced her leg while I rubbed her head. I took her to the vet the next day and the vet said he just thinks she sprained her leg. So, he put her on pain killer and told me to make sure she rested a lot. So I did exactly that along with icing her leg twice a day for 20 minutes. After a week and a half she started running again and wanting to play and I felt so relieved. As soon as she ran out of her pain killers, she started limping again. I took her back to the vet the following day and they did some X-rays and it turned out she has bone cancer. Hers is to the point where treatment won’t do much for her plus she’s just too old to go through any major treatments or surgeries. My heart was so crushed. The vet told me I’d be lucky to get 2 more months with her. I tried my hardest to not cry in front of the vets. I waited until I got it my car and I let it all out. That was about 3 weeks ago. Since then I have seen her get worse. She has trouble sitting up, sitting down, sometimes I have to help her walk around and it’s hard for her to use the bathroom. I made the decision to put her down before she gets any worse. I don’t want her to suffer anymore than she already is. Thursday, October 11th is the day I am taking her in and putting my baby girl and my best friend down. My heart breaks every second that Thursday gets close and I can’t help but always cry when I’m sitting with my baby.

I had a talk with her the other night about having to let her go and doing what’s best for her. I started balling my eyes out and she just turned her head, looked at me and placed her head against mine. I love her so much and I hope I’m making the right decision❤️

UPDATE:

well, it happened. Today at 3pm, I took my baby girl, Princess, to the vet and put her down. Before that, I took her to see my dad who loves her very much and she loved him very much and he got to play with her and give her some treats. Then, I took her to McDonald’s got her a double cheese burger, and to end the day, I got her some puppy frozen yogurt. I tried to fill her last day with adventure, great food, and lots of love. When she went into the vet and they began, I was with her the whole time. Kissing her, talking to her and rubbing her head. It happened so fast that it took me by surprise but the good thing is she didn’t suffer and she won’t anymore. She went so peacefully knowing how much i love her and how much I always will.

I can’t wait until the day I get to see her again, hug her again and kiss her again. She means the world to me and I’ve never loved anyone so much. Rest easy my sassy, beautiful, kind, loving and sweet baby girl. ❤️