I was diagnosed with preeclampsia at 33 weeks and admitted to the hospital then transferred in an emergency to another. I was told I’d be admitted until she was 37 weeks if my body would tolerate it. Little did I know I’d be induced at 34 weeks when my bp spiked to 172/100, the indication failed, babies heart rate dropped. I spent a week in the hospital and I was discharged home, without my baby.

She is doing well in the NICU but the hospital I was transferred to is over an hour away. My goal is to go up every other day to take breast milk and spend time but I feel like a terrible mother because I can’t be there for her. The doctor is estimating her being there for 3-4 weeks and being home without her is a whole other type of hell.

I feel like none of my family understands because they have never been through this. I guess what I’m looking for is advice, how did you handle weeks/months of not having your babies when you’re home on maternity leave?

Thanks in advance.

My little 3 pounder. Milla Jean