I don’t feel so alone

My partner of almost 6 years left me almost 2 months ago (on the 17th)....and it was very unexpected. He started acting weird a month prior and a week before he dumped me he just told me he didn’t want to be with me anymore that he wants to work on himself and he’s lost etc, but he also wasn’t happy with me because I didn’t appreciate him and he just lost interest. (Mind you he comes from a broken home, lacks empathy, and does not communicate his feelings well, which caused arguing). I feel like he completely pulled the carpet under me. I begged him to stay that week and let me work on it even though I felt like i appreciated him, i did the small things, i gave him words of encouragement, I would express my love, give him surprises. I cherished him so much and we have been living in our home (both signed) for about 8-9 months. I’ve been feeling lost, he’s still here. He still helps financially, and he still wants to hear about my day. Yet he says he does not want to be with me. He says he’s here because he cares and we’re waiting it out till he can move. I feel like everytime I see him, or everytime I talk to him I become hopeful that he’ll change his mind. My stomach ties in knotts some days, and I feel like I’ll never find someone. Other days I feel encouraged and feel better because I have so much to offer!! I guess it’s nice to read other stories here about break ups and it reminds me my heart isn’t the only one that’s broken. I just wish I could heal and move forward but I keep holding on in hopes he sees what he’s losing. Am I crazy???? Mind you I’m 13 days late.....I’ve taken 2 pregnancy tests at 6 days late and both came back negative. I need some hugs, love, and self-care.