Okay, so I am 18 years old and a freshman in college but I live at home when im not in my dorm. I am constantly being subjected to emotional abuse via my mother- just tonight she told me my sexuality was invalid and a result of the people I hang out with, that I was a slut because I've had multiple sexual partners and I call myself a feminist, and that I am an embarrassment to the family and she has no intention of treating me with respect simply because she doesn't like me. She told me I was wrong for my position on civil rights because "black people are more racist than white people and there's a difference between a black person and a N*gger and she hates n*ggers". She literally told me that who im trying to be is not me because I'm done trying to be who she expects me to be. In the past she has denied me care for my mental health problems and cut me off from society due to embarament. I don't know how to get out. She's never let me learn to do anything or hold a job because she wants me to be completely dependent so that she has control by holding my education, car, and phone above my head. I don't know what to do. She literally makes me want to kill myself. Help.