I hate this pregnancy experience

Tbh when I got pregnant 🤰🏼 I thought it was gonna be just this lovely experience where you and your significant other grow closer friends and family are always near and asking about you. U can eat wat ever u want sleep as long as you want plan baby showers, take pics the whole nine yards...but in reality this has been the worst experience I’ve ever been threw... we didn’t get closer we tended to argue more. Then ever we only on good terms every now n again.. he rather be with his boys then spend time with me... be fine for hours n not care how I feel about it... friends they disappeared so fast I think I have 4 that really check on me... family well mines is great they are doin so much to help me out even tho they are so far his side tuck it I haven’t heard a word from they bitch ass’s. Smh I was so depressed about the shit I didn’t even have a baby shower nor did I take pics. I just cried it out and spent his money. The only thing that is good out of this whole situation is my baby that’s it I promise I won’t be doin this again no time soon and if I do. Imma need my dude to sign a paper saying he will be there emotionally and physically. I’m at the end and I just want to give up.... depression is setting in and all I want is for her to come so we can leave this horrible place.