I have no actual fear that our relationship is ending. It's just I had a dream about this and realized it's 100% true and told my boyfriend that I thought about it.

That if for whatever reason down the road we broke up, I'd be losing him as a best friend and my other best friend (his best friend - but I don't really have friends and we just connected when we met).

I told my boyfriend how it would really suck because I would lose the both of them and I love them both (they're like brothers). And even if I tried to hang out with him, that I know he'd be himself and respect my boyfriend and not do it just due to the history..

Has this happened to anyone else? I almost feel guilty because since becoming chronically ill, I've lost all of my friends. I don't truly have anyone but my boyfriend. The two people that I think about throughout the day is my boyfriend and his best friend.

I know it sounds strange, but he got a cat from the shelter (I had 4 cats at the time, until I put one down recently leaving me with 3). Turns out he got a red eye and didn't have funds to take him to a vet and contacted me (as if I could actually help recover him 😭 I'm no vet, just a cat owner/lover my whole life). I told him to come up to my vet and I'll pay for whatever he needs. We were close before, but after that, he's like my best friend too.

I'm not looking for advice, it just feels shitty that I had a dream that I lost the both of them and it hurt so emotionally.