My husband and I have been ttc since November.  I got a positive pregnancy test while my husband was out of the country for work.  I decided not to tell him over the phone and wanted to surprise him when he got home.  I ordered a "I'm Going to Be a Big Brother" shirt my my 3 year old son and was going to have him wear the shirt to surprise my husband.  The shirt just arrived today.  Sadly, I have already miscarried.  My husband is still not back and I am dreading telling him.  The whole experience has been horrible!  And now on top of everything, I just don't know what to do with the t-shirt I ordered for my son. It sounds so trivial!  This is my first loss and I feel so alone!  I am feeling thankful for this group though.