Well when I thought I was getting faint positives two days ago. Af was due yesterday I tested this morning and bfn and cramping like mad so af is on her way.

I am sick of feeling the disappointment now, and hoping for our rainbow baby. I just wish I could switch off from having a baby and carry on with life without thinking could this be our month, month in a month out.

My partner bless him tries remaining positive throughout all of this (especially with his infertility) but I’m struggling to remain positive.

I can feel the strain which I know won’t help so I think I officially give up as don’t want to feel this way no more.