Virgin seeking advice

Ladies,

I need some advice. Every decent guy I’ve met drops me when he finds out I never had sex at age 33. I am someone who has struggled with depression and anxiety all of my life. It’s under control and no longer rules my life. I have never felt that connection between myself and a man (I’m heterosexual) even though I find guys extremely attractive. To me, sex is sacred and I want to have it with someone who feels this way. I’ve been told to just jump into some guy’s pants to get it over with. I’ve been told it’s better to wait for someone of sound mind and heart. What would you do? Having my illness to hide behind, I threw myself into work and school before that. I feel like there is much more to life. I desire a deeper connection with a man. I desire a relationship. I deserve to be loved and to love just the same as anyone. What is your opinion?