I don’t really know how I’m supposed to call this so I’ll call it “hormones”.

So basically, there’s this guy I’ve known for about three years at my school and let’s just say we’ve been through some stuff.

At first I didn’t really know him, he was more like a friend of a friend. But then a year later, he was put into my class, which made us more friends. And even though he wasn’t the hottest guy there is, I still found him very sexually attractive. He knew how to make someone want him, in other words.

And things started to get a bit sexual between us and we tried to be in a relationship but that didn’t work out.

So all that to say that we have done some things but we just never went all the way. So no sex with each other.

But lately, about a year after that whole relationship thing, we’ve reconnected in some ways. Mainly because he is now single.

And since we live close to each other’s houses, we often take the metro together.

So the other day, we were in a real flirty mode and we kind of acted like a couple while in our way to our houses. And I’m not complaining in any ways because I want things to happen between us. I want “it” to happen between us.

So back to that flirty afternoon, he decided to walk with me to my house and once we arrived, we kind of stood there. And let’s be honest we both knew what was going to happen. I could see and feel that he wanted to kiss me but he was just waiting for me to make the move but I was waiting for him to make the move which made us wait for one another for a little while.

Finally, I decided to kiss him and wow do I not regret.

So like a week later, which is like today, I’m still thinking about it. Like I’m some sort of teen in a movie who finally got to hold hands with her crush, which is not my case.

And I’m feeling real sexual lately and all I can think about is his body and what I would do to him if we were alone in a room. And it’s frustrating. Like really frustrating, because I want it to happen but we don’t really spend time alone in a room and I’m not about to have sex in public and I also don’t want to text him how I feel so I’m just stuck here with all these different feelings washing over me and I seriously don’t know what to do.

So yeah, help(?)