I have a problem

I am depressed and my mom is one of those people that thinks that depression is something that is in your head and I have been having suicidal thoughts and stuff and going to the mental hospital is really expensive and we don’t have enough money and I just don’t want to put that burden on someone

I’m sorry for the grammar and stuff I suck at writing

And sorry for the depressing subject I just need to tell someone and I don’t want to tell my friends so this is the best place to go.

😭I don’t know what to do