Been together 3 years. He has multiple female friends and 3 of them has turned out to not be what he said .. He hasn't cheated on me with anyone. But there's this one specific friend who he was supposed to be with before me but she wanted to work things out with her daughters father instead for her family. So he chose me .. Second option I guess.. Anywho, she's the most respectful friend out them all. The one I use to think he still had feelings for.. Also lied to me about having sex with when they were talking only to get back at her bd for cheating on her . she wanted to record it and show her bd I guess.. So, there's times me and her became really close (before I knew they had sex before and the reason why) when he talks to her its like how he talked to me when we first met the freshness that super extra nice respectful side of him.. She has tried to fall back because of how I started to feel about how often he talked to her and so forth.. He begged her not to leave or break their bond and understanding Bc of my paranoia. . Here are the messages

How am I supposed to feel?? Shouldn't he realize everything he realizes with her his own woman brings to the table?? Right?? I think he just doesn't fuck with me when he "feels" I don't understand him and ppl like her do.. Its always been like that. He's very difficult to be with and I'm one of the strongest women he's met that actually tolerate it and accept it.. Soo , I'm just not understanding this .. Something just keeps me unstabled with these female friend situations.. What am I not seeing here?? I feel he loves her. He just not going to say it. He was so heartbroken when she called off their friendship at times. Like he lost a loved one .. It was PATHETIC!!!