How is this fair that these heartbreaking losses are also painful and SO expensive??

Went in for my post-d&c follow-up visit today, and the first thing I had to do is deal with yet another outstanding balance at my doctor’s office. It’s just making me angry at this point. I’m already so devastated to have lost my baby, and recovering from the d&c at the ten week mark was painful. I’m still dealing with the spotting and so many emotions. On top of it all, losing 3 pregnancies this year has cost a ton. Thanks a lot, stupidly high deductible. Every blood draw, every ultrasound, every doctor’s visit...then thousands for the d&c. It all feels so unfair! Then there were the meds, preseed, HPTs, therapy for the grief, new clothes when I had baby bump bloating, etc. More than $5,000 later, I still am childless. Screw you, 2018. Ughhhhh. Just needed to rant.