I wish I wasn’t so alone

So I finally made my appointment for my abortion on the 9th and I’ve asked the father if he could help me with the payment and he hasn’t given me an answer yet on if he is going to help me at all. But he will continue to ask me to “hang out” aka hook up. I haven’t seen him since the night we had sex and I lost my virginity. I feel so disrespected like wow in my mind I think he thinks that because I’m already knocked up he can’t do it again. I just have been feeling so sick and I am so scared and I am so alone in this. And on top on me being pregnant the father also gave me a sexually transmitted disease so I had to be treated for that but thank god I caught it so early. And with all of this I’m dealing with all the abuse that I’ve been through my whole life from my mother. I just hate this feeling of being so alone.