My anxiety is getting the best of me making me doubt going to college

I was supposed to start in the fall with all of my “friends” that I graduated with but I wasn’t ready so I was going to wait until Fall 2019 I got an email last week from the college about spring 2019 semester in January I want to go but I’m doubting myself and how I’ll be alone and how I’ll see my old friends who are ahead of me which makes me not want to go there but it’s the only local college that I can afford

I have nothing ready no backpack no laptop ugh