I lied to him

So me and my on and off again boyfriend have been trying for a baby since August of last year this August my period was late so I told him I was pregnant a week later period came so instead of telling him I’m not pregnant I kept the lie going and have been tryin since August to actually get pregnant but I’ve failed I’ve been drinking fertility tea taking vitamins and tracking my ovulation and period things I’ve never done and. I don’t have any fertility issues to my knowledge but I’m just trying to give my self a little more advance chance I guess but AF is due on the 10th and I don’t feel like it happened this month either smh idk what to do at this point and I’m really heartbroken I’m 25 years old I didn’t think intentionally getting pregnant would be this hard maybe this is God’s way of punishing me for lying