TTC is HARD!

I’m 11 DPO and have been TTC for 15 months. It’s extra hard because my husband is the “if it happens, it happens” type with a pretty low sex drive, so I feel like I’m doing all the work to track my cycle, do ovulation tests and make the baby dance happen at the right time. If we BD too soon, chances are he’s not in the mood when the time’s right. Sometimes I can make it happen twice, but that’s a lot of pressure for me!

This whole time I’ve never expected the pregnancy tests to be positive. I don’t know why. I just never think it’ll happen, but this month I’m hopeful and that scares me because I don’t want to be disappointed. My breasts have been sore the last week, but today they feel a little better, so I don’t know hat I can read too much into that. I think I’ll test this weekend but am really expect to be bummed out by negative. 😕 having a hard time being positive right now.

If you’ve read this. Thanks for listening. Just feeling down and needed to vent a little.