Will I be considered ANTISOCIAL?! (What do you think is best to do?)

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Here’s a bit background info: at my school we have 6 hours of subjects and two 20min breaks in between of these hours where we meet outside in the school yard with my friends and eat, talk etc.

Here’s the story: I really hate where we are during break times and especially now that it is getting cold. I feel like i throw 20+20 mins in the garbage every day as I go there and don’t even have a spot to sit and relax. So I thought of this: I thought of going to the library and do the homework that was assigned during the day so that I can spend my time more productively. Also this way, I will have more time during the afternoons at home to relax, revise and learn something extra (eg. As I am interested in studying medicine, I could learn about different diseases and other medical stuff during my time at home.). Also me marks in some subjects are as low as 65% which makes me mad as in other subjects I have a mean of 90-95%. I thought that this method could help my marks to rise in some areas.

THE PROBLEM IS THIS: I don’t want to seem antisocial and nerdy. I don’t want my friends to hate me or get jealous of me or anything. (I mean jealous that I am trying more than them etc.) I thought of meeting with them during weekends just to show interest in their existence (because I do) where I’ll have a whole day free to do anything (as my homework will be done from the break times). I just feel that my final two years at school before uni are so crucial and I have to cope with time and boost my knowledge as far as it gets. I did tell them if they want to come with me at the library but they claim that they prefer to be outside to get some fresh air and also that they don’t want to detach from a social state (where in reality they just want to be outside in order to have a view of the boys they like). I am not into that. Will it seem so antisocial if 5 out of the 10 breaks in total per week (the least) I was in the library rather with them? I was just thinking... Please don’t judge or hate... I need real help here...