Highs and Lows

I am almost four months pregnant and while I am ecstatic along with my fiancée about the little one growing inside of me and becoming parents, I have had a serious decline in my self-esteem recently. Even though I have a prominent pregnant belly, I feel fat. When he is home (has been on travel for work recently) and when I drive the 3 hours there and back to see him, he never hesitates to tell me how beautiful I am and that it’s just me not being used to having a stomach.

Is anyone else currently or has struggled with the low self esteem side of pregnancy?

Sometimes I feel really cute and I am always rubbing my belly, hoping to catch a flutter or something so I know it’s really happening but, I’m thinking it could just be the fact that I am just not used to having a belly.

As stated, we are both SO excited to be parents. When he is home, he talks to my belly and says that he/she should stop making me feel nauseous, that we are going to see it in the next few months and that he loves the baby. It could be the separation of him being gone, especially when we thought he wasn’t going to have to leave again so soon. It does not help that I am antisocial and literally, have no one in the area except for my family.

I have out 16 week appointment coming up and since he will be out of town, my Mom is coming with me. We are hoping to find out the sex of the baby so we can do a gender reveal. Regardless, does anyone have any tips or things to keep my mind occupied? We had to put my dog down on the 18th so there are only two cats and of course, me in the house when he isn’t there...

I’m sorry to sound whiny but, I’m a ball of erratic emotions right now. Thank you for commenting or even reading this post.