I have officially given up on getting pregnant, it's so disappointing I follow the calendar have sex the entire week I am suppose been doing it for four years now with one miscarriage which was four years ago and nothing since, been with the same men.. I just guess it's not meant to be I'm 35 now and I just don't see it happening. I can't afford <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>, or adoption... so I don't know what to do... I just wanted a chance to be a mother teachy child everything I didn't learn but reality is that may never happen... it hurts to accept it but I can't dwell on it, I have to stay focus but it still hurts... all my friends got kids, getting pregnant at my age and nothing for me... everybody ask why you don't have kids and I lie, make it seem like it's no big deal when really it is... I can't share this with anybody else because they would never understand... sometimes I think it's my fault for being so wild and sexual when I was younger... Doctors say I have a healthy uterus, periods are always on time they are always heavy and painful but last 4days every month... I have a tilted uterus not really sure what that means, never had an abortion but had some STD's when I was younger, maybe that's the reason but haven't had any in ten years or more.... I ask why but I can't afford to even really find out if I can get pregnant, every pap smear comes back normal, I am anemic and that's because I lose too much blood every month... what sucks is no one understands...