I was raped 😞

I thought maybe it was my fault because I was extremely drunk, but I remember saying no... but I didn’t fight him. He slapped me a few times and did what he wanted... I bled for 2 days afterwards. And I’m so numb. I can’t even cry over it. I either have no emotion, or nearly have an anxiety attack. I have no one to talk to and I feel so alone 😞