I’m feeling so sad today.

Today is 13DPO. Or it would have been.

Now it’s CD1.

I got a faint positive on 12DPO, with clear color, and I felt so excited. An hour after, I started to spot. I didn’t worry too much - I spotted a little with my first son, too - but soon it got heavier. I was woken up at 3am by intense cramping and bleeding, and suddenly my little hopeful BFP has crashed into a chemical miscarriage reality.

I was so close. Six months of trying, and finally had it within reach .. only to have it taken away so quickly.

We’re going to take a break and try again in January.

My disappointment is so heavy, I can’t think of much else right now.

Good luck to you ladies. ❤️ 💔