Traumatic birth

Idk where to put this but has anyone else had anything really scary or traumitizing happen during birth or close after, that you just can't let go or forget about? I had my baby six weeks ago and it's like I have flashbacks of the complications I had with the birth of him. I almost died and that's not supposed to be an exaggeration in any way. I know this seems dramatic but I actually cry for myself, when I think back on all that went on during his birth and the days after, it was so scary. I used to never care about being poked and prodded at the many doctors visits you go to while pregnant but now I'm like ready to jump out of my skin, being at my postpartum checkup, and having blood drawn, pap, exam etc. I hope I'm not alone on this.