Overwhelmed

I just found out my husband of 3 years has been talking to other girls. Now I NEED to know if he cheated. I need to know everything. I need to vent. I need to leave and think about this I want to go far away but reality is everyone I know like to talk about your business, including my mother. I want to go away for few weeks and clear my head and see what my step will be. We have 2 daughters and we got into a really big fight a month ago and he told me he never wanted kids that I was the one that open her legs. It hurt me so bad I didn't speak with him for a week. I just need advice, I have no problem leaving. I just have this need to know the truth, and it's killing me inside because let's just say I'm bat shyt crazy and I really wanna stab this motherfucker. I know this going to sound crazy but I asked the girl who send me a screenshot about him, if she can see up to where he takes it but now she doesn't want to help lols. Yup I know I'm crazy. But she sounds shady af too b3cause she let me know he has talked to her before and says he only with me cause of the kids, so like you say he let you know this but your just sending me this screenshot of him hitting u up like 😒😒😒😒😕😕😕😬😬😬😈😈. I need some advice I have checked his phone and all but don't find shyt. He messaged her on FB like ugh he texted her Aug 10 I was fuking 9 month pregnant with our second child. I'm just very livid advice please and thank you.