Feeling punished 😭

I had my first and last abortion back in January. One of the hardest decisions I had to make. I have one child already. My current boyfriend and I are ttc (officially the first month of trying, but we used the not trying not preventing method prior) and I feel like I’m being punished for what I have done 😭💔 all I want is to have another baby. Idk how many times I have asked for forgiveness. I feel so guilty and broken.