Hi 👋

, I’m a teen who has been going to a youth group ever since I was in year 3 ( in Australia) but for the last couple of months I have been trying to avoid everyone and everything about my youth group. For some backstory a couple of year ago I meet a bunch of friends of the LGBTQ+ community ( I know that being homophobic is not a part of our community neither is being against to their marriage (everyone is different in belief) ) I also meet people that seemed not as weighted down as me because they did everything they wanted and seemed so happy, this is when I started questioning everything and my anxiety got in the mix. Every time I went to youth group I felt extremely judged and scared so I would just break down crying every Friday night in front of people I had know for most of my life, my parents started noticing and I decided to take a week off and this then turned into a month and on and on. I have felt less judgement and I have mostly just lost faith. My friends from youth have been texting me to get back but I’m not sure if I want to put myself in a situation where I feel so uncomfortable all the time even though I love all my friends😔. I miss them but I’m too scared to join another group or church.

I realised I don’t want to slip away due to a family gathering where my cousin sung a gospel song and it made me rethink some of my choices. I have no idea what to do

I really need some guidance