Venting 💔

So my doctor just sent my referral to terminate my pregnancy. I keep telling my self that this is the best decision for me and my future. Prior to me knowing how my hormones were affecting me I was feeling depressed and alone. As a recent college graduate and still working part time and in a relationship with someone who felt the constant need to avoid me, I just kept crying and crying hoping it would help me cope a bit better with my feelings. I was caught by surprise when I found out i was expecting.. I won’t say that I wasn’t torn between the choices I had to make but I came to the conclusion of ending this pregnancy. The scenario I keep playing in my mind is the one where I can see my child asking me why their father isn’t seeing him/her and why their father doesn’t want to spend time or love him/her. I rather prevent myself having to deal with that heartbreak of a child asking me that kind of questions when I could’ve done better and given my child a life where the father wanted the child and can give him/her the love and affection he/she deserves. I know that in the long run my decision is for the best in general! May god continue to give me the strength and allow me to have the family I truly hope and desire in the future. We all are going through our emotions in this group and I hope the best for all of us here. It’s our choice and we must always remind ourselves that this was for the best not only for you but for that child who in reality deserved better. We all feel alone and not a lot of people may understand our choice but know that we are NOT alone and we can get through this!