I can't even.... do this anymore.

It hurts so bad being so close and loving kids that aren't yours but you have helped take care of them for 3 years. Yet you aren't their real mother... so you have no say..

Made plans for a 3 year old bday girl this weekend. Had to change plans èx because the real mother kept making plans cancelling. And doing whatever the fuck she wants. And the dad who I'm pregnant for and been dating for over 2 years has the nerve to get angry and pissed at me... because I got pissed that his ex kept doing that shit. I bend over backwards for him and his babies. Love them and take csre of them as my own and he has no fuckin respect for me because he has the nerve to get pissed at me. I have every god damn right to be pissed and upset. His ex is constantly being a cunt. She can't even spend child support on those two kids. She keeps them dirty and they look homeless. But I'm in the wrong. I'm the bad one. I do everything I can.... AND IN I'M WRONG.

I'm done with today. I can't handle anymore. And this baby inside me deserves so much more.