I’ve had chronic nerve pain for 6 years now. We have been together for 7. I am 24.

I went to a very experienced acupuncturist for my pain in 2015. But it’s 20-30 mins away from me now so it’s harder to get to. My husband and SIL told me to find somewhere closer so he doesn’t have to drive me (I have a 1 year old who needs to be watched during the appointment).

I found someone else and they ended up doing something wrong and nearly paralyzing half of my face and gave me an infection. I didn’t do my research properly and I feel so depressed about it now. I keep crying randomly and can’t stop.

So now I have to go to the one I originally went to to fix this problem because I don’t trust anybody else, but I went once and he complained about having to bring me (he was with his friend the whole time while he waited).

So today, he said he doesn’t want to bring me to my appointment because he has to wait for an hour. So I told him this was the main reason why I didn’t go to the experienced acupuncturist because he would have to wait. & he started to blame me for going to acupuncture in the first place. He called me retarded, stupid, and an idiot. He said I need to apologize to him for going to acupuncture and ruining everything for him. Now our money is being spent to fix it and he has to deal with me being sad and he hates it.

But I need to fix this pain. I think about getting assisted suicide all of the time because of how horrible it is. I can hardly cook, clean or take care of myself. I only care for my daughter and he won’t help with her.

Before all of this he was yelling at me for not being positive but his words hurt me so bad that I began crying and I couldn’t stop. He told me I can jump off a bridge for all he cares and called me a retard. I was crying so much and he didn’t hug me. He just walked out to smoke and didn’t comfort me at all today. I ended up missing my appointment. I still feel depressed I feel like a burden.. I’m making life hard for everyone around me.