Hi all,

I'm wondering if anyone else has gone through this and could offer up some advice on how to keep sane and become closer to baby...

So I have a 15 month old son and we have no close friends or family so it's just us 3 (including my husband) most of the time.

Well, I'm really struggling with ideas of what to do with him and just coping in general. Everyday feels so repetitive and I'm going crazy.

I really want to know how everyone copes with the routines, the boredom, the depression, the fatigue. Yes I know it's meant to be hard, but you do it anyway don't you? So why can't I..

As terrible as it sounds, my son isn't even enough motivation to force me to keep going with everything. I have periods where I leave 90% of the parenting upto my husband and curl up on the couch and watch TV.

I wish I honestly enjoyed spending days together but I spend most of it wishing his nap/ bedtime was sooner and daydreaming about anything else I'd rather be doing.

Let me clarify that I DO love him to pieces, but I can only handle him in short bursts. I feel like my husband is the natural 'mother' in the relationship and I'm the stereotypical dad doing my own thing and leaving most of the raising to him...

Re reading what I just wrote I can't believe how selfish I sound... But honestly if I try to spend more time with him (as much as my husband) I end up having serious breakdown and it just goes back to normal within a few days.

Edit: I do work part time. I haven't really spoken to him about how I actually feel...he thinks I'm lazy and undisciplined.

We have another one on the way and I'm having horrible anxiety over how it'll go with the 2 at home.