I feel so horrible.

I love my son he’s one month old. I’m 18 years old. This has been so hard, I’ve basically been doing it all by myself. My husband works all day and goes to sleep as soon as he gets home basically. It sucks. But my baby sleeps all day 4 hours at a time during the day! That’s when I sleep. But during the night, it’s so hard. He wakes up every 2 hours -normal I know- I feed him. Change him. And then he wants to stay yo and cry. I swaddle him I rock him I talk to him I do everything I know to do, it doesn’t happen always. But when it does, I stress myself out. I’ve screamed at him. And I get so so frustrated. I would never hurt him, cuz I put him down and walk away when I get so mad, but I know he’s a baby. It’s not his fault. But I don’t know what to do about it. Sometimes I get so so so mad, and it is soo difficult. Especially when your all alone. Hell , I’m really young too. I wish my mom was here . My husband won’t let her come though