I know this is a pregnancy room, but soon, some of you may go through postpartum depression. I just wanted to tell my story. I told myself it was just baby blues when I started having random panic attacks when my daughter was about 2 weeks old. I told myself it was normal when I thought people in the grocery store wanted to kidnap her. It was normal to have trouble sleeping (approximately 2-3 hrs per night). It was normal to lash out at the people who loved me, including my husband and 11 year old daughter. Well one day it escalated. I didnt want my husband to go to work, I wanted him home. I blocked him from leaving, screaming at the top of my lungs to please stay. I accused him of wanting to leave me for another woman (multiple times). When I came back to reality, I knew I needed help. I got on some antidepressants. They helped with some anxiety, but I still wasnt sleeping. I still had bad thoughts and paranoia. I told myself that antidepressants take 4-6 weeks to work. And then it escalated more. I started having dreams that I thought really happened. I started to self harm. I was so afraid to talk to a professional because i didnt want anyone to take my kids from me. I accused my husband of not wanting the kids because he would come home late. I refused to let my family know what was going on. I even followed my husband to work because I was so sure he was lying to me. I started to self harm to calm myself down. I went on a drinking binge one night (had my mom take the kids and baby) and had no recollection of anything that had happened. I called my sister in law to come get me, but dont remember going home. I constantly felt like a horrible mom. Then I started hearing things that weren't there, and constantly feeling like everyone wanted to take my kids. It took several people to convince me to go see a psychiatrist. I lashed out at everyone trying to help! I finally went and was diagnosed with postpartum psychosis. All of this happened within 5 weeks! It got worse and worse. I am doing much better now. I'm on a different antidepressant and I'm now on antipsychotics. Ladies, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE dont ignore the symptoms. Educate your loved ones on things to look out for. Dont think it will go away over time. I ruined relationships with family members and could have potentially lost my husband. My 11 year old was so scared of what her mom had become. THIS IS A VERY SERIOUS ILLNESS! Do NOT wait to get professional help. It's better safe than sorry. Dont let it escalate like I did. Sorry for the long post and if you got this far, thanks for reading!