I would like to ask that anyone regardless of their religion to say a prayer for me. For peace with the fact that God doesn't want me/ my husband to have a family. I now know that the chance to be a mom died along with my son. I tried for my rainbow but I don't think I'm supposed to make it through this storm.

I'm asking for others to pray simply because I feel insignificant. I prayed for the healing and health of my son and that got us no where. I'm pretty sure I'm done ttc. It's painful (literally ) and I've been suffering for no nothing. Just so God can laugh at me. Well no more. I am tired and sad and empty and I give up.

I hope heaven Is real so my son can be happy and pain free and not alone.