Feeling bad

Well. I have a drs appt tommrow. It’s been hell BF and pumping. It was always painful to the point of tears. I even saw a LC and she couldn’t really help me (even though she really did try and she was awesome. ). Tried a nipple shield. Didn’t work. Still was painful. Tried to pump exclusively instead. Still

Painful as hell

Well I know think I have an infection as my left breast is hard (and yes it’s been hard and I try to pump it out and it gets swollen and hard 20 min later again )

I have a 101 fever , my breast is hard, I have chills that are THE worst,

I don’t care anymore. St this point as long as baby is fed I don’t care. So formula is my only

Option. She needs a healthy mother. Period. But I still feel guilty 😢