Only having 1. (Not for scared soon to be moms)

I can't have another kid, my body is so beyond done at this and I know it sounds selfish but I really can not go through it all again even if it might be different.

I'm for real having phantom contractions and my spine is super messed up now because of the epidural they gave me and I had 26 hours of back labor and my tailbone still hurts from that, plus my IBS is a lot worse now. I'm a month PP and I feel like I'm in shock, I keep having flash back to the pain and labor like it's a nightmare that keeps on play over and over.

Not to mention the endless nights on anxiety and no sleep and painful breastfeeding.

The idea of doing this again puts me in fear.