Babies 17 months apart

I don't think I'm dealing with ppd (just yet) but I am feeling down. My babies are 17 months apart. My daughter has always been a daddy's girl. But towards the end of my pregnancy, she always just wanted her dad. She would scream cry for him (mostly at bedtime & in the middle of the night) and everything I did or said would not help. I'm 1 month pp and she still does this. She's never cried like that for me or seems to cry at all for me.. I feel like she doesnt like me and would rather be with her dad or grandma over me. I miss when she was a baby and I was able to comfort her and cuddle her. I feel like I can't now. She's a year and a half now and is it normal for them to not act like a baby? I feel like she doesnt act like much of a baby (if that makes sense). She's really independent. It's just me and the babies alone during the day while my husband is at work. She wont touch or hold her baby brother. She does come up to him and "talk" to him. When her dad is holding him or feeding him, she gets super jealous & starts crying, whining. I just want to feel like she loves me.. I do sometimes but I feel like most of the time she doesnt like me. & putting her to bed is really hard and with her fighting it and crying, it makes me feel bad and like she really doesnt like me.. I'm also breastfeeding & plan on stopping within the next 2 weeks. It's a challenge breastfeeding and watching my toddler but I also want to stop so I can spend more time with her too.